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izdzeršu

ik katru

lāsīti no

nopietnajiem

cilvēkiem

pārlieku

pozitīvie

paliks uz pohām.

Ehh, es maldījos. Ne tikai vasarā cilvēki ir auksti, bet arī rudenī. Tik tiešām. Aukstie cilvēki.

Atsalstiet tač beidzot!

Varbūt es pati esmu auksta?

Nakts. Debesis tik skaidras, ka var redzēt ik katru zvaigznīti tumšajās debesīs. Miers, klusums. Ne lapa nodreb, ne upe čalo, ne suņi rej. Bet pēkšņi kliedziens tālumā. Un atkal klusums. Tad ieķērcas nakts putns, ķērcieni kļūst ar vien skaļāki, tas lido tuvāk un tuvāk. Tas nāves putns, nakts putns. Upe sāk čalot, kokos pēdējās lapas nodreb. Katrs putna ķērciens atskan manā galvā. Pēdas nosalst, kukaiņi sakustās krūmos. Putns jau ir pavisam tuvu. Ar vien skaļāk un skaļāk. Skaidrās debesis nu ir pilnas ar mākoņiem. Nevienas pašas zvaigznes. Vai nāves putns nes sliktas ziņas? Nē, man tas sliktās ziņas nenes un jācer, ka arī jums ne. Tas aizlido uz šosejas pusi, kur fūres lielā ātrumā joņo. Jā, tās tagad arī var dzirdēt. Bet, lido prom, nakts putn'! Tālu, tālu prom. Mums tevi nevajag. Tikai atdod zvaigznes debesīs. Tās tiek domāt par mūžību.

Man pietrūkst mīlestības.

Nu, tā pavisam vienkārši, pietrūkst.

Ir iekurināta krāsns. Tas nozīmē, ka rudens tik tiešām ir klāt. Kad iekurina krāsni, tad istabā kļūst omulīgāk. Uzreiz jūtama dedzinātas malkas smarža, vilnas zeķu mīkstums, dzirdama lapu čaboņa ārā. Bet patiesībā šodien dzīvoju tikai uz smaržām. Pankūku smarža no rīta, rudens smarža pastaigā, baikāla smarža pudelē, malkas smarža istabā, tabakas smarža pirkstos. Un man gribētos vēl pāris smaržu, bet šodien nespīd, tā teikt.

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Graduated High School.

Kissed someone.

Smoked a cigarette.

Got so drunk you passed out.

Rode every ride at an amusement park.

Collected something really stupid.

Gone to a rock concert.

Helped someone.

Gone fishing.

Watched four movies in one night.

Gone long periods of time with out sleep.

Lied to someone.

Snorted cocaine.

Failed a class.

Smoked weed.

Dealt drugs.

Been in a car accident.

Been in a tornado.

Done hard drugs (i.e. ecstasy, heroin, crack, meth, acid).

Watched someone die.

Been to a funeral.

Burned yourself.

Ran a marathon.

Cried yourself to sleep.

Spent over $200 in one day.

Flown on a plane.

Cheated on someone.

Been cheated on.

Written a 10 page letter.

Gone skiing.

Been sailing.

Cut yourself.

Had a best friend.

Lost someone or something you loved.

Been to jail.

Dangerously close to being in jail.

Had detention.

Skipped school.

Got in trouble for something you didn’t do.

Stolen books from the library.

Gone to a different country.

Dropped out of school.

Been in a mental hospital.

Watched the “Harry Potter” movies.

Had an online diary.

Fired a gun.

Gambled in a casino.

Had a yard sale.

Had a lemonade stand.

Actually made money at a lemonade stand.

Been in a school play.

Been fired from a job.

Taken a lie detector test.

Swam with dolphins.

Gone to sea world.

Voted for someone on a reality TV show.

Gone to Europe.

Loved someone you shouldn’t have.

Used a coloring book over age 12.

Had surgery.

Had stitches.

Taken a taxi.

Seen the Washington Monument.

Had more than 5 IM’s/online conversations going at once.

Overdosed.

Had a drug or alcohol problem.

Been in a fist fight.

Suffered any form of abuse.

Had a hamster.

Petted a wild animal.

Used a credit card.

Gone surfing in California.

Did “spirit day” at school.

Dyed your hair.

Got a tattoo.

Had something pierced.

Been on an honor roll.

Known someone with HIV or AIDS.

Taken pictures with a webcam.

Started a fire.

Gotten caught having a party while parents were gone away.